Never have I been such in a quiet and calm mood these past few days. I have always been busy with video shoots, papers and some other things I cannot explain in-depth here due to personal reasons (which, you wouldn’t bother to know anyway). I have been a moving problem for six days at the least, and I never got enough sleep yet during the last January-February transition. And it’s already the 6th now, just in case you did not notice.
As I lay down my bed last night, I thought it was very unusual of me to sleep that early. It was just thirty minutes past eleven in the evening before I finally closed my eyes. Late for you it may seem, but for some reason, I find it hard sleeping at night. I tend to stay up until the wee hours of the morning doing something. Whether it is productive or not, I just don’t give a damn. I just do that something for the sake of keeping my mind awake.
I’m dying but I am trying to stay alive. I need to. Half alive almost every night, I still manage keep up with the pressure, thanks to this good old blog made by some wonderful blogger (Hahahahaha.) and its corny entries, the miracles by Photoshop, and the privilege of going to SM Manila for basically no reason at all, if not for eating at some sponsor restaurant or fastfood chain. Did I mention girl-watching? Hah.
Having classes starting 8:00 in the morning to 4:00 in the afternoon can be boring, (as a matter of fact, it is) but I actually got used to it. Unbelievable, but things are in absolute reverse when I get out of the situation. Almost twelve hours of free time after escaping the four corners of the campus for a ride back to wherever I came from. My mind thinks I’d rather be in class than not. But its the opposite when I am in school. Confusion sinks in. I do not know how or why, but I can’t seem to pull myself together. It’s like every hand of the clock eats my life little by little, burning every single second.
One thing I must do now is getting my life back. (Hopefully.) Well, the big question is, when will I get it back? I do not even know if I will be able to.
On a lighter note, tomorrow is Chinese New Year. Kung Hei Fat Choi.